Bullies ruined my life..😟

Hello I’m a 17 year old girl here. My name is K. I’ve been bullied throughout my life. It hurts. It started in elementary. It wasn’t bad. One boy didn’t like me,one girl kept sticking out her tongue at me and one girl sometimes gives me mean looks. In middle school, people called me weird,ugly and ratchet. These 2 boys were laughing at me in the bus. I got mad and couldn’t stand getting bullied and I callled him ugly. He laughed and pointed at me because i was wearing glasses. But I didn’t really mean it! Only did it to stand up for myself. In high school, it was really bad. One boy pushed me in lunch, people were saying threats,calling me names,etc. In Ap art class, these girls were bullying me. One called me the b word and the f word. One girl stole one of my artwork. They’re pretending I stole it. The girl was fake whining. It made me feel worst and I did cry. These girls in lunch were bullying me too, they said hurtful things. One girl wanted to fight me. One other girl said I have dodo hair. It was insulting. One boy threatened to murder me in lunch. I suffered from OCD,anxiety and depression. I also had suicidal thoughts. I’m still a little now. I did cry in the school bathroom. If you’re getting bullied, seek for help. Ask someone you really trust. And you can get through it! Stay strong! Don’t bully back. It will make it worse. I’m nervous might get bullied in college. I know i am.