bullying is hard

hi this is my story. it all started as a friend ship a fun one. until it got complicated. she was always against me and i was very stressed and couldnt handle the things she would say. ‘no offence but you should lose weight’ and she thought the word no offence was ok. it wasnt. then i was telling another ‘friend’. she was on my side. or so i thought. the following week had enough. with the other friend along side me i told her i didnt want to have this friendship anymore. and then i fell into hell. the other friend turned against me and so did the rest of my friendship group. all turning against me and spreading rumors that i bullied them. i did have someone else to turn to tho my best friends one since birth and the other since year 4. they stuck by me and made me laugh. but since they were boys i was made fun of. i ignored it. when i walked away from this ongoing argument it always came back. they would come up to me in my spare time claiming i did things i didnt do. but one day i was on the field with someone i had recently made friends with and i was lying on a blanket when they came up to me and called me some rude names then walked off calling me a 5 year old. i havent mentioned i was also being bullied by someone else who had loads of older kids on her side. one day i was tying up my shoe laces when she came up to me and poured fizzy water in my head and tried to follow me home. her friend claimed i called her a name but i didnt.so the next day for these two arguments we were all pulled into a room and told to leave each other alone. the girl with the older kids left it but two didnt. they would pull faces and whisper things about me.and almost like heaven they fell out. One came running to me but unfortunately 2 days later she ditched me for the other girl again. so we were pulled int a room again. this time the teacher said. ‘what has she done wrong?’ and none of them said a thing.i was crying because i was over it. faces were still pulled after the room. nothing changed. one day after a lesson of torture aka i was stuck with them and im guessing by now you know who them is. we were all racing to get to the teacher. i won. but i was talking to my sisters friend a short while after they found the teacher. One girl apologized to me. to this day i am friends with her not the other one, i cant stand her. but we don’t argue. we had a disagreement though.back to when i was talking to my sisters friend i was laughing and they claimed i was crying. we still disagree. but if you have the thoughts i did whih were.- slit your wrists,go die,your ugly and many more. tell someone or it will get worse. but this is what i remembered. i had a family if i died it would hurt them. and thats when i said killing yourself has or will kill someone else. thank you for listening