I was always a quiet and shy girl in elementary school. I had friends but I wasn’t very good at socializing. Anyways when I went to sixth Grade,I changed schools. It was a totally new environment for me.
Most of the students at my new school were reckless and uncaring.they would curse at teachers, curse out each other, join on other students and so on.
my elementary school was the complete opposite.students respected one another and their teachers. there was rarely any disruptive behavior and absolutely no cursing.
Being a new student in a totally different school setting intimidated me.this of course made the other students feel like I was an easy target. They would pick on me about my clothes,my body,my hair and anything else they felt like picking on me about.
I would never say anything back,because i was too afraid.to play it cool i would just laugh with them as if I was unaffected.
But mostly everyday when I got home from school,I would cry and always think:what should I have done or said?
I always blamed myself. this made me see myself in a negative light.I was always judging myself or telling myself that if I wear this -I’m ugly or I look fat.
i am now in the tenth Grade and still get embarrassed in front of other classmates.I have had a difficult school life with many ups and downs.i am still learning and trying on how to not let other people affect me anymore. This is my start.