Is It Ever Going To Stop

It all started when I was younger. I’m half African and half Caucasian. I’ve always been picked on. When I was a child my mom would put my hair in braids. I had beads and barrettes and I thought they were beautiful. But once I got to school, I was picked on. When I got to be seven or eight I finally had one friend. One! I had finally felt like someone cared. I kept going to school and my confidence built. But I soon realized I wasn’t getting the grades I needed. I hadn’t known I needed glasses. I told my teachers I couldn’t see the board. They moved me to the front of the class, but I still couldn’t see. My own teachers began to tell me that I was lying. They had told me I was just trying to get attention.. How could they? My own teachers! My mom stepped in and took me to the eye doctor. I was near sided and needed glasses. After receiving my glasses, I got honor roll. I then began to get bullied for having glasses! ber her friends calling me a monster! I sat there and cried for hours. Me, a monster? We barely hung up out after that. My mother And I then moved to California. (We had lived in Alaska.) I thought to myself. New school, New Place, New Me. I was so wrong. I went to an Elementary school there. I was so different. I was the little Alaskan girl. They asked me if I lived in an igloo. They taunted me about my hair. My clothing. Everything. I was new. The cliques there were awful. Everyone had a group. I wasn’t When will this madness stop? What did I ever do to the world to deserve this? I’m scared to go back to school. I have told adults and no one can do anything about it. I’ve tried to stop it for years. I’ve never had anyone. I’ve lost all hope. For 16 years I’ve tried making friends, and for 16 years no one ever cared. I want to tell this story because no one knows how bad it can truly get until you feel it. I’m going to stay homeschooled. I don’t know what else to do. I would write more details. Some are too embarrassing. Does anyone know how it feels to have absolutely no friends? I do.