Words can destroy your whole life

I got bullied since I was in the “Grundschule”(in Germany). No one wanted to play with me because one girl always told lies about me. I was very open, not shy at all and nice to everyone. Alone the fact that you stay alone and the others play together and dont want to play with you hurts so much. Then I got to the “Gymnasium”. I was shy and quiet. And that was the reason I got bullied again. I was not like the others and looked a bit younger. It got further that the whole classes of the grade laughed about me and hurt me with words. And after I got beaten up by boys I changed the school. New Start new me I thought… But I talked to no one was the quiet girl in the back. And till now I dont know how or what to talk with my classmates because im afraid to tell them something personal, afraid to say something wrong, to be laughed at in the middle of the class. I’m extremely shy and have social phobia. They destroyed me and my whole life. They live happy not knowing that what they did follows me until now.